Suddenly the languidly flowing weekday afternoon air felt unfamiliar. Soothing that bewildered feeling, Kwon Yunsu leaned his head against the seat.
It was the start of summer vacation.
At that time, Kwon Yunsu was making a tremendous mistake.
Lee Euishin knew everything.
He was someone who’d been a fan of Kwon Yunsu for as long as Kwon Yunsu had been a fan of soccer.
The bones and joints that grew much slower than his own and the white, soft skin with almost no hair, the clean and fresh body odor, and the plain desires that were endlessly simple, so naive his insides would burst.
Lee Euishin who’d watched all of it while gritting his teeth was someone who’d done everything except penetration during his greenhorn days. Though he’d quit early on every time due to his aversion to others’ bodies, for himself, bodies intertwining wasn’t something to fear. Just extremely repulsive or extremely craving.
While Kwon Yunsu stayed up all night watching soccer matches, Lee Euishin masturbated thinking of him. He’d imagined the process of gently soothing crying and opening the body thousands of times and calmly reviewed it even during everyday contact. While clueless Kwon Yunsu watched matches and their bodies touched, he’d get hard instantly while recalling his usual delusions, and to him that was natural. It was just shameful that he had to endure and hide it. So for Lee Euishin,
“The time has come.”
It wasn’t that things suddenly changed drastically, but that he could finally do what he’d been waiting for all along.
Lee Euishin smiled while laying out alcohol, condoms and lube, spare blankets and bath salts, fever reducers and such. What kind of face would Kwon Yunsu make if he knew he’d impulsively bought children’s suppository fever reducers?
Everything was that guy’s fault for being stupid. Who told him to see the world by his own standards? At least he hadn’t taught him that way.
In the summer of being twenty, Lee Euishin’s head had nothing but thoughts of doing that.
“I’m here—.”
Kwon Yunsu who took off his shoes and entered immediately looked around the living room and checked the kitchen and bathroom, bedroom and study and dressing room in order. Surprisingly, Lee Euishin wasn’t there. Since the air conditioner was running, he probably hadn’t gone far, but it was somewhat unexpected. He thought he’d be guarding like an iron fortress.
In any case, it was fortunate. From morning he’d been carried here and there holding luggage and was exhausted before lunchtime even arrived, and he wanted to wash up too. If he showered, he could buy time to organize his thoughts.
…Suddenly imagining the moment he’d face him and feeling anxious made him embarrassed and resentful. Why am I so nervous about that bastard? Is it natural since I’ve done things? The season flowing from spring to summer had truly been turbulent.
When he opened the door, the moment this familiar place had become a mess came to mind and his vision spun for an instant. The room was clean without a speck of dust, and among the familiar objects returned to their original places were mixed gleaming new things. A suspiciously branded laptop, keyboard, speakers, and so on. Though his pupils wavered for a moment between anger at the landlord and awareness of hitting the jackpot, Kwon Yunsu tried to be dignified. Ahem. This much is natural compensation. The Manchester City uniform bought with his snot-nosed childhood money could never return now. While organizing the clothes Kwon Yunju had chosen and searching here and there, not even remains were excavated. He was a landlord without blood or tears.
Even until he came out after showering, Lee Euishin hadn’t come. Even after turning off the air conditioner and sitting in front of the living room fan spacing out for a while, drinking water, turning on the TV, lying spread-eagled and simulating arguments up to version 2, round 5, the front door was quiet.
With nothing particular to do, Kwon Yunsu closed his eyes. It’s vacation now, but what should I do? Europe is over, and if that scammer pays me money I’ll hit the lottery so should I visit the East Sea? Or follow Song Taesu’s club MT. I should study my major a bit, is it too late to find a part-time job? How will I get along with Euishin now? …Dating, what even is that……
Like that, Kwon Yunsu fell asleep. The fact that he still hadn’t turned on the phone he’d turned off in the morning didn’t follow even into his dreams.
“…Uh…, hey…… Kwon Yunsu!!!”
He opened his eyes at the sound pounding his eardrums. In the bright afternoon, Lee Euishin’s face, pale white and murderous, was looking down at him.
“What happened to your phone?”
“Huh?”
“What happened to your phone?!”
Sleep flew away at the sound murderously shouted while making him sit up. Ah… now that he thought about it, where did that go? He fumbled the floor but all he caught was the remote. Then it must be in the pile of clothes he’d taken off when showering.
“Over there some…”
“You didn’t lose it, right?”
“I, I turned it off.”
While avoiding his gaze and getting up, he was grabbed and sat back down.
“Why?”
…Is there anyone who kills people with just one word like this, Lee Euishin?
“Did you get annoyed because I kept calling and texting?”
“……”
In the startled silence, all version 2, round 5 simulations were scrapped.
“Am I annoying?”
This time he turned his head in surprise. Annoying, he’d been scary, hateful, and liked many times, but you being annoying…
“No, Euishin-ah.”
“……”
“Really not?”
He put strength in his eyes that had lost their sleepiness and emphasized again.
“Then why did you turn off your phone?”
“I was on my way up anyway and you kept contacting me so……”
“So it was annoying?”
“……”
Is that right? Does it become that? Kwon Yunsu closed his mouth. The more he made excuses in detail, the scarier Lee Euishin became.
Lee Euishin who’d been glaring with a seething face for a while suddenly got up. When he looked to see what he was doing, he was taking beer from the refrigerator and drinking it. He finished one can in an instant, took out another, and returned to the living room thump-thump. Kwon Yunsu quickly went and sat next to him. He sulked because it seemed like I was finding him annoying? That guy’s face that had become cold and rough looked cute, what a big problem.
“Where did you go and come from?”
“Your house.”
“……”
It was extremely fortunate that he’d swallowed the retort of ‘why?’
It’s right to go to the last place someone was if they suddenly can’t be reached, and it’s natural to worry if their phone is off. He shouldn’t say something like ‘just stay at home.’ Though the communication breakdown was only three or four hours and he wasn’t a child but a twenty-something male with all limbs intact…. Anyway, since the other party was Lee Euishin, he’d done well to shut his mouth.
“I was coming on the subway.”
He snatched the beer from the guy’s hand and drank several gulps. Beer after a nap, it was incredibly delicious. Just three months ago he wondered why people paid money to drink this.
Lee Euishin who’d been glaring at him grinning caught the wrist holding the beer, took a big gulp, and returned it. Are you giving it to me? Kwon Yunsu excitedly drank several gulps and held it out again. Sharing was nice.
“While I made dozens of calls, grabbed my car keys and rushed out, sped to your house and came up empty, made calls to all kinds of guys bleeding dry, you were dozing on the subway?”
“I wasn’t dozing though…”
He avoided his gaze while lying.
“You make someone worry like that and then sleep peacefully?”
“…I’m becoming lazy, this is serious. I should exercise…”
“I said I was worried about you. Nothing to say?”
“…Sorry.”
I’m a hundred times sorry, you bastard. While the conversation went back and forth, Kwon Yunsu kept looking into space the whole time and the beer was gone in an instant.
“Hey.”
And Lee Euishin who’d put down the can immediately brought his body close. Naturally an arm wrapped around his waist and lips approached right to the tip of his nose. When he unconsciously avoided his face saying “uh uh,” Lee Euishin who’d firmly gripped his chin lowered his voice.
“…Don’t avoid me. We’re in this kind of relationship.”
And he pounced.
Just a moment ago they’d been chatting casually and sharing beer…
A tongue tasting of beer lightly licked his lips. It fell away making a smacking sound, stuck again, and smacking sounds came from his eyes, nose, and cheeks too, then the tongue immediately burrowed in. Lee Euishin seemed to like using his tongue. In movies it looked nice when they lightly touched and separated, just pressing lips together. I liked that too.
Anyway, he quickly breathed through his nose. It felt like he wasn’t exchanging a kiss but receiving what was being unilaterally poured out. If he complained, far from looking sorry, he’d scold him saying the problem was that he was passive. …At least close your eyes. When he touched his eye area as if saying that, Lee Euishin who’d grabbed his wrist made him wrap his arms around his neck. At the same time, the tongue that had been gently pressed against him thrust deeply in and pushed his body. In a half-lying position, he hung on the guy’s neck and kissed him. This kind of relationship? …Euishin-ah, I feel so awkward and my heart is trembling I could die. Why are you so big? Why are you so handsome I can’t even push you away? When he made a displeased groaning sound, Lee Euishin who’d been touching his pounding chest laughed pleasantly.
Do it slowly, he stroked the broad back soothingly and pulled his lips away. And turning his head slightly to breathe and recalling movie scenes he remembered, he pressed together again. Just changing angles this and that way gave a dirty feeling, so Kwon Yunsu was startled. Inescapably, it was the adult world.
