“…Hey.”
Looking at a very ambiguous spot, Leda spoke, unclear whether she was speaking to me, Alice, or Olivia. I asked her who she was talking to.
“Won’t you all come to my house?”
At Leda’s words, I was the first to shout agreement, and at this, Alice and Olivia simultaneously pointed at me and said ‘if he’s going, I’m not going.’
…Having been left alone like that, I was barely able to catch a ride in Charlotte’s car and return home.
***
To my future husband Cheick
…(omitted).
For the above reasons, I ended up coming home alone. We were originally supposed to meet just the two of us, Leda and me, but isn’t this a total betrayal? lol Anyway, when I asked Leda what the three of them did after going, well, they just cried. Olivia cried while talking about today’s events, so Alice cried too and Leda cried too… All three had bad things happen recently, and more than anything, crying is contagious, right?
Anyway, Olivia seems to have badmouthed me to Alice, so when I asked what exactly she said, she won’t answer! She just said that when Alice thought well of me, she told her I’m not as good a guy as she thinks. Olivia is definitely not the type to speak at that level, right? They fought and became enemies because of exactly those words, so if she had spoken nicely, it wouldn’t have turned out like that.
That aside, you should have heard Alice call Hazel a crab lice rag dickweed. I don’t like Alice, but I newly realized that when she curses at kids I want to curse at, she’s more reliable than anyone.
And today I came on an errand for the principal and saw you practicing, and I fell for you all over again. I first fell for you in front of the vending machine, but it’s true that I grew my feelings while watching you practice after that. When I saw you today, that sensation I felt back then came alive fresh and new.
Anyway, Cheick Rowan, you better really prepare yourself. Because I might appear in front of you with a ring and kneel on one knee as soon as we graduate.
Prepare yourself,
Liam Blake
***
“Hey, demon hag!”
After finishing writing my diary, I opened the trailer window and shouted for Olivia. Then a response came back telling me to shut up and only silence lingered, so I had no choice but to directly visit the demon hag’s lair and knock on the door.
“Really, stop being annoying!”
Olivia, who just opened the door and came out, threw a tantrum, stomping her feet on the ground.
“Until I know what you blabbered about me to Alice, I absolutely…”
“I said Liam Blake is a homo bastard and a character-ruined person, so don’t even dream of liking him. Satisfied?”
“Being a character-ruined person, I’ve been revealing that to you from early on so that’s fine… How did you know I’m a homo bastard?”
“…What, are you really a homo bastard?”
Realizing my mistake at Olivia’s question, I asked what she would do if I really was a homo bastard.
“What would I do? If you’re a homo bastard, you’re a homo bastard.”
When Olivia asked if I was afraid she’d do the same kind of thing as Aiden or Hazel, I honestly said yes. Olivia confronted me asking what I took her for to think such thoughts, then soon acknowledged that her image was rock bottom and showed a gloomy expression.
“Cheer up. Being rock bottom means there’s nowhere lower to go. In the end, it means from now on there’s only improvement, no worsening.”
“That’s really comforting, homo bastard.”
“It’s fine to call me a homo bastard, but call me that only when it’s just the two of us in this place. Demon hag.”
“Homo bastard.”
Olivia shot me a look, said one word, then closed the door and went inside. I also found out what I wanted to know from her, so I quickly returned home and turned on my smartphone. And checked Cheick’s diary.
Sorry. Liam. I often make the atmosphere strange by taking jokes seriously. So when you say things like you’ll propose to me, I get serious by myself, so please keep that in mind. Of course, I don’t dislike the idea itself of you proposing to me. Um. Am I taking the joke too seriously right now?
The first paragraph overflowing with seriousness. I laughed looking at it, then suddenly thought about whether Cheick would find it burdensome if I proposed.
But I also get my heart racing when I see you sweating while training on the field, or when I see you active in a game.
Get my heart racing.
Unable to hide the feeling of ecstasy at that part, I read and reread the same part with my mouth open.
He said his heart races.
Around the time the excited feeling was somewhat settled, I immediately sent Cheick a DM.
When you say your heart races seeing me, my heart races even more.
Not long after sending the DM, I was able to receive a reply from Cheick.
Cheick
You know
These days I’ve been thinking about this especially often
It’s a really stupid question but
Does Liam Blake love me?
What kind of idiotic—
I thought that far, but since he himself seemed to recognize it was a stupid question, I decided not to express this thought in text.
So did you roughly find an answer to the question?
Cheick
Roughly
If it’s okay, will you tell me the answer you thought of?
Cheick
It doesn’t matter either way
Huh?
Cheick
Because I
Um.
Good night
Cheick stopped talking mid-sentence and disappeared from the DM window. I sent a DM bombardment for a long time to hear what he was about to say, but he only read the DMs and didn’t reply at all.
I do love you
Cheick Rowan
It might seem hasty but I really love you
So give me a hint about what you were going to say
Otherwise I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep tonight
Please
You said good night!
But I don’t think I can sleep because of you
What is this
Cheick
Sorry
Finally.
Cheick
But I
I’m really sorry
I can’t promise to go wherever you go
I don’t want to make promises to the person I love that I can’t keep
I want you to always make the best choice you can for yourself
And I want to make the best choice I can for myself too
Even if as a result of those choices we end up living a bit apart
If that’s the result of making the best choice for each of us
Tchaikovsky
Cheick
Yeah
Do you love me?
Cheick
I only become talkative in front of you
I only have many worries when thinking about you
And you’re the only one who makes me feel the fluttering feeling I wrote about in the diary
I think I can call this love
I moved my fingers to write some reply to Cheick, then realized no message was immediately necessary and put down my smartphone. Then I made several phone calls to Leda, Charlotte, and Nathan in turn, but no one answered. So I ran barefoot to Olivia’s trailer and knocked on the door like a crazy person.
“Hey, demon h… Princess, please open the door! I need to go somewhere urgently!”
I need to go see Cheick. Right now.
“Are you testing my patience right now? If you don’t get lost right away…”
Olivia—though she was a bit angry—opened the trailer door and came out this time too. I begged her that if she helped me just this once, I’d get lost for life, so please give me a ride to near Cheick’s house.
“Why the track team loser’s house all of a sudden? Ah! I had my suspicions, but what Alice Miller said must have been true?”
“What did Alice say?”
“That you like the track team loser.”
