It was utterly absurd. Wasn’t it as if he was trying to get compensation for that time?
Each and every day on that island had been torturously painful. So much so that he’d only been praying for those days to end as quickly as possible.
“…….”
And yet you had been engraving every single minute, down to the second, into your head? He’d always been curious what exactly was stored in that empty frontal lobe of yours.
“You want me to pretend to love you…?”
For what purpose are you begging for such cheap love? A hot sea breeze blew with a whoosh. The man’s neat hair became disheveled. Was it possible that a worthless omega like him was shaking this man so much, right now?
“Even if you escape from here, Woonghee-ssi can’t go anywhere anyway.”
At those deranged words, Woonghee raised his voice.
“Stop with the fucking bullshit…!”
“I reported that this jewel was stolen from me, you see.”
The man’s fingers tapped and traced Woonghee’s nape slowly. His tone was as casual as if saying, “The air is quite humid today and my body is disgustingly sticky, it looks like it’ll rain soon.”
“What…?”
At that, Woonghee gaped with his mouth open in a daze.
“I thought it would be hard to find Woonghee-ssi, but the jewel would be easy to find. See, we met right away, didn’t we?”
The man slowly rolled his eyes to capture him in his field of vision. It was a pitiful gaze that seemed like if you wrung and twisted it, honey would drip out.
After pulling such a stunt, are you going to speak of love to me with those pathetic lips? This crazy bastard. But there was one thing he understood.
Just how much you want me.
“My whole heart got through to you.”
Right, escaping from before your eyes changed nothing at all. He’d just be caught and dragged back into his arms again. Woonghee instinctively knew he had to make a real, final escape this time.
Right, the opponent is insane. Expecting common sense to work was the wrong path from the start. I should have gone crazy too.
“Are you confident?”
Woonghee pulled up the corners of his reddish lips. He couldn’t tell if it was a smile or tears. Right, that bastard doesn’t know either. It didn’t matter whether what he was pouring onto him was love, obsession, compulsion, or control. Right, fuck it. If he just endured for that period of time, he’d let him get the beta shot. If so, shouldn’t Woonghee also throw his entire body into it? He only had this one body anyway.
“Confident? If you mean confidence that I won’t let you go again, then of course I have it.”
At his words, Woonghee grabbed the man’s neck fiercely. It was a neck so thick he couldn’t wrap one hand around it completely. But he couldn’t just let himself be on the receiving end. He wanted to return exactly what he’d received straight into this man’s grasp.
“I’m a person who escaped twice from that shitty island.”
If this man held his lifeline, then he would do the same.
“So in the end, I’ll escape from you too…!”
Crash—he embraced the man’s elegant but thick nape. He squeezed it with all his might in that position. As if he wanted to break this neck right now. Now that their skin was touching, he could feel everything about this man.
Hot skin, even the pheromones thrashing violently as if anxious. Thump thump, his blood vessels rampaged inside his palm.
“It was easy though.”
“What?”
He babbled with eyes that looked somehow drunk. It was the complexion of someone who’d been enchanted by a beautiful mermaid, then caught in a net and dragged onto land.
“What’s so difficult about loving me during that time? Falling for Woonghee-ssi was so very easy for me.”
“…….”
“You don’t know how heartbroken I was when I lost you.”
The man’s thick hand covered the back of Woonghee’s hand. So if you’re going to run away, kill me first and then go. The man who’d babbled that grabbed Woonghee’s hand and squeezed his own neck even more forcefully.
“Haah….”
Only their hands were covered, yet he felt a crushing pain. That stinging sensation made it feel like his bones would crumble. And yet the man let out a sigh as if he was going crazy with pleasure from that pain.
Fuck. Woonghee chewed and swallowed a curse inwardly. You weren’t heartbroken, your pride was trampled…! The hand that had been choking his neck slowly released.
“Breathing became meaningless. It felt like a knife was entering my throat.”
As if his world had disappeared, he fumbled and covered his left side of his face with his left hand. As if searching for something he’d lost.
He faced Woonghee with only his right eye open. For some reason, Woonghee felt that gaze seemed half-broken. It was a beautiful yet desperate expression that only someone who’d lost their beloved could wear.
“It was so agonizing that I even had this thought.”
But Woonghee knew. When acting, don’t actors mostly cry tears from their left eye? Because they were false tears, having to perform emotions scripted from a screenplay.
So this man must be the same. That’s why he was covering his left eye, right? And at that moment, the left eye glinted through the man’s spread fingers.
“To pull out the knife that entered my throat.”
“…….”
“And stab all the other bastards to death with it.”
The left eye turned toward Woonghee. Within it lurked terrible longing, frenzy, obsession. It was the man’s sincerity without a shred of falsehood.
“……!”
Facing that, something flashed inside Woonghee’s heart. Should he describe it as the feeling of a sharp knife being driven into his chest? Thud, his heart was stabbed. He seemed to be bewitched by the hot blood and body heat spreading through his body.
Wouldn’t this be what it felt like to be plunged head-first into a swamp-like place? Woonghee couldn’t even gauge whether this struggling was a writhing to escape, or movements sinking deeper.
If he struggled frantically, he would only be buried deeper in the swamp.
“Then you’ll be tormented by guilt for life.”
At the man’s words, the thought that had been lying in Woonghee’s mind squirmed. It was none other than guilt.
“I wanted to remain in your mind even that way.”
“…….”
Woonghee panted for breath. Whoosh, a sea breeze resembling the pitch-black night sea rushed at them. The chilly, cutting wind seemed to pierce and carve into his sides one by one.
“…So what happened to those people?”
Were they still left on that filthy island? They might all be exhausted from hunger and tearing into each other’s flesh. By now they might even be boiling bones for stock. Only horrific imaginings boiled and heated up. Sour nausea naturally surged up from his throat.
“Why? Are you worried about those people now?”
The man crumpled his lips that held a sharp smile as he laughed.
“You were the one who ran away, abandoning those bastards.”
“That’s…!”
The faces he’d left behind on the island flashed past one by one before his eyes. He’d wanted to bring at least Paeng Hana. If he’d been confident he wouldn’t get caught by others, he would have extracted her somehow.
“What happened to them…!”
“Don’t worry, fortunately I didn’t kill them.”
The man’s hand caressed Woonghee’s nape. As if lovingly, as if handling his precious jewel.
The man’s neat fingernails that had been stroking down so preciously soon scraped against Woonghee’s skin with a scratching sound.
“I have to keep them alive so I can hold onto your lifeline again.”
You son of a bitch…. You bastard…!!
Without even avoiding Woonghee’s eyes trembling with rage, the man looked down with a pleased expression. It was the complexion of someone who’d discovered a mine.
“What will you do?”
The man asked. The man asked Woonghee, who was trembling his cheeks finely while revealing a light of disgust.
“The other people will only be released if I let you go.”
It was a proposal, but it was no different from half-coercion. His hand crept up from the nape, and fiddled with Woonghee’s earlobe. Pop—fireworks burst into the sky above. In an instant the world brightened. The man’s entire face leapt into Woonghee’s field of vision.
At last Woonghee was certain. From this dog-like man, he couldn’t escape even a little. That face had tenaciously followed him.
On the island, at sea, even in his dreams the man had come to mind…! Woonghee grabbed the man’s collar. Then he pulled him closer to himself.
“Mmph…!”
Huk….
Two wet lips tangled desperately. They rubbed their flesh while moving their sloppy tongues and shared saliva. No, they swept down and dragged each other’s throats as if stealing. His brain buzzed. The tip of his tongue melted, and the flesh touching the man trembled.
This was ecstasy. Woonghee’s entire body was welcoming him. As if welcoming the owner of the body. He hated him terribly. But on the other hand, he couldn’t help but acknowledge it. Only now was his entire body feeling the stability of having retrieved this man.
“Rather than love a monster like you….”
The two people tumbled over each other, trying by any means to steal each other’s breath. The man’s large body pressed down on Woonghee as if to cover him. The man thrust his tongue deep into Woonghee’s throat. With one arm propped against the wall so Woonghee’s body wouldn’t be smashed into it.
“I’d rather just die like this.”
Woonghee’s eyes were always chasing this man. Without realizing it, he’d been thinking of the man’s shadow that would be across the sea, and was chasing his pheromones.
Because they were alpha and omega, they must be clinging together so sloppily to each other’s pheromones like this.
This was essentially erosion.
He wanted to carve out these rotting, festering emotions from himself. But contrary to his wishes, these parasitic emotions kept spreading throughout his entire body….
“Then die, Woonghee-ssi.”
A large palm covered Woonghee’s field of vision. Woonghee fell with a thud onto the captain’s cabin floor. There was no time to feel pain. A pitch-black shadow loomed threateningly over his eyelids. The man had climbed on top of him.
The man immediately lifted the waist of Woonghee’s gown. Woonghee wrapped his legs around his waist. Between Woonghee’s slender groin, the man’s thick waist fit perfectly. He buried his lower body even deeper.
‘Ahh….’
Woonghee trembled his lower back as if convulsing. Searingly hot body temperature, damp groin…. His own body was remembering this man.
His thick fingers roughly dug into the sloppy hole. Drip—sticky slick trailed out. Fuck, from just that kiss he’d already gotten this wet.
At the rough touch, Woonghee unknowingly let out a small moan while trembling his groin.
“Haah…. There will never be any chance of me truly loving you.”
Woonghee grabbed the man’s hair with the arm that had been embracing his neck. Yet even while doing so, he was lewdly spreading his groin wide like opening scissors toward him.
“Got it?”
If you want me to act like I want it, I’ll do it as much as you want, so be prepared to wake from the dream at any time.
If you want me to become your swan, I’ll show you the same ending too—he poured it out like curses.
